I have a date for Sadie Hawkins, with this AMAZING guy. He's sweet, and kind, gosh life is good. I wish it was more stable though. I mean everything. I need sleep.Thats what stable means to me.

So i need to breathe deep. Runaways is so fun. I feel like im getting closer to people i haven't really gotten to know. Anyways, 12th is kinda scaring me. This weekend is MEMORIZE WEEKEND>

adios pantalones

quote of the week:
"All he has to do is put pepper on a piece of shit and he gets a standing ovation"
-Sarah Grosman on Emril Lagasse

So im doing two shows @ once. To stressful but worth it.

Read this article: Its about life after "Annie" for the original orphans.
Its SO FREAKIN FUNNY!

So today is pretty much "THANK GOD YOUR NOT DATING ANOTHER GAY GUY DAY"
for me in particular.

12th night is going to be an amazing show. I <3 hanging with Matt, Megan, Katie, Cloteal, and My BFFF Desiree. Patrick is a beyond brilliant director.

aud today

ps who wants a romantic dinner with ma y des?

Yesterday in dance, collin sang a weird song to me...mainly cause i was depressed about this little girl who was in "Into the Woods Jr." with me passed away from lukemia wednesday. So if i look down in the dumps, it not cause i used to associate myself with a boy who i currently wont name. Jenny was one of those kids who could light up a room everytime she entered. She had a heart of gold, and the only thing she ever wanted to do was theatre. Her dream came true. She never felt bad for herself and always had an amazing spirit. I will miss her alot.


So im stressed and tired, and depressed all at the same time!!! Yay me :)
List of Stuff im stressed about:

12th night: Act 1 memorized by thursday....help ME
Runaways aud : "once Upon a Dream" or other song and monologue
Directing : Im a ditzy russian slut (Curtis wanted that).
Monologues : FIND ONE!!!!


So if your not going to D-land on monday- Bina and I want to go to Sea World!!!! I know all of you are trying to contain yourselves. I mean Shamu is my main homeboy. I really need to go on Wild Artic, and Journey to Atlantis A MILLION TIMES!!!!!!!! So if you want to come call us!!!!


I need to see into the woods this weekend too. I have a confetti meeting @ 10 on saturday. They asked me to SM alice. i pretty much said HELL NO! I think they just dont want someone who scares little children, since ive only worked with them once (I was nice to the lil ones, not the teens)

Im drinking my heaven sent coffee right now. i want to be hyper. i want to do something tonight: movies????

u luv this i can tell. I love the clevage on Tati. And that devilish look on Charles.
Who wants to come to see it with me on opening?

Read this post




Damn it, I lost thanks to Alex and Collin.

So 12th night is going....Bat Boy is dead, not officially, but will soon be dead.

I feel like all my friends are kind of fading away like ill say hi to someone and they wont acknowledge me. I mean i thought i was genuinely liked. I know im annoying, and i act stupid sometimes.

I just wish everything would stop. And i could walk through school and home and fix problems by making tiny adjustments. I know weird.

I feel odd. Out of the loop to say. I miss people who i thought i knew.

The Jury

So I go in and I sing. I thought i was a huge piece of shit.

They thought otherwise.

I sit down and Barbra and Kirk tell me I sang wonderfully and put the character as real as possible. They told me even though im new at CoSA, im a HUGE asset.

Then the McClung talked, she told me i was bad at my monologue memorizing dates but she was shocked with the end product.

Then grades. I started crying and felt like a selfish piece of humanage. Then Ms. B gave me a huge hug. And told me im always enjoyable to have in class. And they all said the same thing, "I bring a spark to the class room" then Babs proceded to hug me.

Then the whole GOODBYE CAME!!!

We had this whole disscussion about the name Scuffy and should they call me it.
It took 5 Minutes....they really wanted to know.


And MR.Y just nodded his head.

Come see Holes. We close Sunday.

Im excited for 12th night. The costume designer wants me took look aka VERY MISERLY (refrence to THE MISER). THe set is cool. Lets just say we have to analyze every line we have : breath,scansion,foot,caesura,and "I want to ____ you"

If you need an explanation for that one ask Lilly,Des, or me.

Life is good. It could be better, but ill definatly take what i've got.

After the friday show for Holes, i went to Corvettes and sat with Cj, Brent, Austin, Max, and Jon. Lets just say it was awkward. I mean when a boy gives hints that he wants to have sex with you, and you try and ignore them...its quite awkward. Also when he assumes your going out to lunch with him, and makes a big to-do when you say u have Drama Club and says "Fine, ill never have lunch with u again".

So anyway, I think im going to drop Bat Boy. I really want to do Runaways and i talked with Barbara and she said if i had to leave early for 12th night rehersal, it would be fine. Bat Boy is going down the tube. We are having major fights with Will. It's just annoying to have to fight for the right to do your own show which Will assured we WOULDN'T cut at all.

I got one of my dream roles in 12th night. One is finally checked off the list. Im excited to work with this cast.

Miguels was fun yesterday.

Ps Good job BOYFRIEND CAST!!!! For a show i utterly hate u guys made me like it. I guess cause your cast was ACTUALLY talented!!! <3 u guys!

I had an Diaphradic Episode on Saturday.I felt odd,dizzy,sick,hot and cold at the same time. I missed the entire first act of "Holes". I felt bad. Yesterday my hair looked like shit.

I went to the doctor this morning. I found out i have a viral infection and it may become bacterial....goodbye juries! Anyways my life is so unsure right now....Aud for Runaways, Alice, or 12th night. and summer....La Jolla or JT i mean I can do AMT and AAC but i cant do the wiz if i do La Jolla if i get into La Jolla. And if i do Starlight or Moonlight or BKSD ill have rides there. Get paid or pay EVEN MORE....
oh well!


I like the awkwardness of getting too many compliments..thats what happend friday...anyways Adios

ill be gone Wednesday so dont look for me..school day show!

Happy New Year...wow 2006. Major reality check.

Holes opens friday....its a good show. Really i mean by tommorrow it will be on the right track to fab ticket sales.


http://www.facebook.com
get one...they have them for high schools now...and one for CoSA

yesterday i fell into one of the holes on stage, and then i almost set the gun off too early. When i hold that thing i feel weird...its a blank but its weird.

After every rehersal i have atleast one pound of sand in my shoes....its quite annoying!

Im so happy to be back at school, i missed everyone. there is some awkward tension but its all good!

GET A FACEBOOK!

I had the most amazing night of my life.

My mom and I went to see a Christmas Carol at the REP, and i met up with Jess and we chatted and hung out. It was a really good show. I love ragtime, Bebop, and Jazz. I wanted some of the stuff they were wearing....it was gorgeous.

Next i went shopping for gifts....i spent tooo much money...i guess i luv u guys!

After we went to dinner at the Marie Callender Grill...can u say AMAZING? I luv Tillamook Chedder.

After we looked around the BEAUTIFUL Hotel Del. We tried to look and see if our friend Joe was playing in the lovely lounge but he was home with his two little boys.We went to the beach and played on the sand and thought the ice were waves.We went to the ice rink too...$20 bucks just aint worth it. Then We went to get coffee and Babock and Story...I <3 the Del Latte and Vanilla Del Chino. We were sitting near the pool when i saw a familiar face....COLLIN BELL. I was really tired and when i saw him i perked up...mainly because of his outfit! My mom and i ran after him through the Hotel....but we lost him......i was sad......anywaywe finished our drinks and tried to stalk various good looking foreigners. When we were leaving we kinda asked everywhere, like the conceirge, where the elfs went....they thought we were insane.....stupid snobs.

We made our way over to church for 10 pm mass. It was beautiful and i got to here my friend katie sing....

Im not working this week so call me...if u want see the Producers with me and Alex tommorrow....possibly!

Im playing a guy, named Clem, who has two fuckin lines.
You bet im pissed...but i do get to say "Sweet Wounded Jesus". Im not mad I'm playing a guy, its just that I'm playing one character, not counting the Dove i play during "Children, Children" aka the animal orgy. I REALLY didn't want to be in that number, its grotesque and odd.

I have a paying job! Im working at SDJT (duh!) as a camp aide at La Jolla Firehouse. Its good money plus the kids are AWESOME!

I've never been invited to Christmas Parties, but this year is the year. I have one Saturday, Wednesday, 2 friday, and one the wednesday after christmas.

YEAH! So for my Confetti Secret Santa I got her the "playbill Yearbook" which has every show from the past year in it...it AMAZING!

I had Bat Boy callbacks yesterday. I got called back for a guy...its a new thing for me.


Nate and Me. We ADORE each other,its funny i used to have a crush on him before i found out he had a girlfriend, that happens alot. We are like brother and sister now.


our big black man, Thomas Mack. Hes the SWEETEST GUY EVER.

So life is good. I didn't get my secret santa gift though, i know who it is. I'm hungry.

tired...bye.

Hey yall,

so im SUPER tired....i might decide to sleep in oxford...

so there's an EPIDEMIC!!!Its called "HOOKIN UP FOR THE HOLIDAYS"~Maria and I came up with it....u know u <3 it

Holes was quite fun last week...im married to a gay man again. When i had to kiss TJ i couldn't reach him, i was wearing heels too???

I just applied for info to York University in Canada, its an AMAZING program. im also trying to do a summer program there.

Conservatory was quite fun. We got a new member....u can still apply...especially guys...we NEED GUYS!

So Bat Boy is coming up. Im so excited....and nervous....so HELP ME!

<3 u all!

I luv these WONDERFUL TALENTED PEOPLE!!! I saw Rent for the 3rd time ALONE. Everyone was busy and it depressed me. But seeing it alone was such an amazing expierience. For once i didnt have to hold my tears back at the very end. I got stuff i hadn't before

Wilson Jermaine Heredia is Straight...all Hope isnt lost!

So this weekend was a mess within itself. I feel like a horrible friend. I had i think 5 people call me this weekend and ask to do something when all i REALLY wanted to do was sleep and do homework. Then my mom, whom i <3, said.."we r going to lunner" aka luch/dinner with my friend who goes to CHS but I NEVER SEE HER! I felt really bad. I mean people whom i havent seen since LAST YEAR called me.

Do this PUHlease....but DONT use Maria's answers! I had to delete one answer cause it was bout someone Maria knows i like

what would you do if I?

1. I made a move on u: hey baby. whachu doin lata. haha
2. I kissed you: ON THE CHEAKY?? kissed you back. =]
3. I lived next door to you: visit you like EVERY day
4. I started smoking: shoot you. haha maybe not
5. I asked you on a date: said hellll ya.
6. I was hospitalized: break one of my legs so i could be in a bed right next to ya and we could press the emergency button for doctors to come and then say JUST KIDDING!!
7. I ran away from home: shoot. i'd go out and FIND YOU and then slap you for doing that.
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there? i'd GET there. like asap. and bring me a big bad thugg to help you out.
9. I asked u to have sex? with chad michael murray? uhhh do it. duh.
10. i asked u out? well we'd go out! duh. =]

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality: i think its one of the best out there. i love ya scuff, dont EVA change.
10. Eyes: i gaze into them.
11. Hair: ITS SERIOUSLY THE PRETTIEST HAIR EVER
12. Body: i think i want to sex it. hhahaha

::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?duh we ARE
14. Keep a secret if I told you one? chyeah
15. Hold my hand? fo shooooo
16. Go on a date with me? yep.
17. Keep in touch? yaaa
18. Try and solve my problems? oui.
19. Love me? oui.
20. Date me? OUI!!!!

::HAVE YOU EVER::
21. Lied to make me feel better?no.
22. Wanted to kiss me? all the time.
23. Wanted to kill me?no. that time at jessicas party, you wanted to PRAISE me. dont lie. [;
24. Broke my heart? no yay.
25. Kept something important from me? no. i tell you alllL
26. Wanted to do me? like all the time.

::AND MORE::
27. Who are you? marizzle dizzle.
28. Are we friends? heckkkkk ya. like DUH
29. When and how did we meet? CoSA. ya.
30. Describe me in one word: scuffaliciousDElicious.
31. What was your first impression? oh shnaps. she must be that scuffy gal that all the jt cosa kids talk about. =]
32. Do you still think that way about me now? ya. cuz you ARE. duh?
33. What reminds you of me? when i burn my tounge on soup or coffee. [;
34. If you could give me anything what would it be?
35. How well do you know me? ooooh baby. i know you so well. but i still have yet to know MORE
36. When's the last time you saw me? the last day of school before break? ya.
37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? um no. i tell u all. what did u wanna tell me?
38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you? you already filled it out. and i love you FOREVER for it. =]


Do it and i <3 u forever:
Desiree
Charles
Erin
Alex
Bina
Nicole
Hilary
and
Colin

DO this one short thingy! and ill do it back....this guarantees <3 for all eternity!

No one is on IM, i bet u guys are all out doing stuff.....i might start reciting my monologue if i get SO FUCKING BORED which i am

I <3 Alex LEE. She is so fun at MV mall playing skeeball and getting these ANNOYING whistles!!!!!!Also trying on shoes....yeah dawg lay me a piece of that. im so BOREd im talking to myself.


Quote FROM RENT:
There are times when we're dirt broke, hungry and freezing, and I ask myself why the hell am I still living here? And then they call.

Thomas B. "Tom" Collins: I think it is only fair to tell you. You just paid for the funeral of the person who killed your dog.
Benjamin "Benny" Coffin III: [shrug] I always hated that dog.


Good Stuff
See u guys monday....may u be less depressed and in the "holiday Spirt" more than i am

I know this IS ALOT TO read, but read so and comment.....puh-lease

I saw two AMAZING movies this weekend!!!!

First thing first.
My mom had a dream about my attourney general costume.
give u a hint: look at Sarah Gettelfingers costume from Dirty Rotten Scoundrels + a cowboy hat.

I love being in holes. I think is the greatest cast since "Your a Good Man Charlie Brown". We like to beat box and dance, and we like to make Myre Menke a drag queen and call her our bitch. And make fun of Nate cause his Elya accent is part british.

I really want u guys to come on opening if u dont have Boyfriend rehersal. Its also mi madres b-day. I'm going to do one heck of a performance.

So friday saw HP4, cried over he who dies cause he who dies is HOT HOT HOT! Voldemort scared the crapola out of me. I luv Ralph Finnes and think he is A HOT MAN, but not as Voldemort/if u dont know who he is watch "Maid in Manhattan".

Sunday i saw Richard the III again. It was brilliant again, Lily and i sat next to each other and looked at each other when Richmond and the other hot guy came out..... we like hot men reciting Shakespeare. I had dinner with Alice Cash= my hero.

I saw the rent preview with all these CoSA and jt people. I was AMAZED at how so many avid playgoers had not seen Rent (meryn!!!)
I balled my eyes out and laughed. Tango Maureen and Ill Cover You reprise were the best. And La Vie Boheme and Take me for What I Am. If you guys know Stewart (Hannah Sumners BF and homecoming nominee) you'll realize how funny it was to watch him during Out Tonight....it was really interesting to see Horny Japanese men during that number. I want to see it again with CoSA people (call me !!!!! My number is in the CHS phone book)

When i was little and i first heard of the AIDS outbreak in the 80's i convinced my self i had AIDS and was going to die. I also had an imaginary friend named Shaggy whom i was in love with and was going to marry. I also had a real life Boyfriend who wanted an Addams Family themed wedding....this was preschool guys.

Today i got mail for my grandma. I dont know how long its been since she got hit by that car but it feels like forever. I cried a little and realized the anniversary of my Great-Grandmothers death is on thursday. I remember the night she died it was thanksgiving, and i felt empty and depressed. I felt so connected to her being that i was named after her.

Thanks to all. want to do anything tommorrow or friday or this weekend (i feel out of the friend loop) call me

So im in holes at JT. Its such an amazing show. I mean we get REAL stage guns.The downer is i might have to cut or die my hair red. What you do when your the Attourney General of Texas!

So the past week was REALLY interesting. I wrote hateful letters, put a variety show together, didnt work on ANYTHING, got my heart torn out, shredded up, and surgically put back in, and still have to MEMORIZE my lines for Holes by the 29. A week off is JUST what i needed.

Desiree's dreams AMUSE ME!!!!! Scene study was just so fucking hilarious, i laughed my ass off.

I figured out something.... I wear my heart on my sleave. I tell the world im in love when its just teenage hormones raging. Im done with that, no more.

My friends are my support group especially my new CoSA friends. Without them I'd be a fake and a fraud and i wouldn't be honest.

Thanks guys....I <3 u!

In the tap dance i get to beat collin up. Every girls dream is now fullfilled in a dance...where it doesnt actually happen. I like how the only person who comments on my blog is Alex. I <3 alex oh and Bina. The rest of u suck.

"The Miser" was the best thing at the La Jolla Playhouse i have seen in awhile. The last thing I saw was the opening of "Throughly Modern Millie" I was throughly annoyed after everyone and their mother sang those songs for auds. Steven Epp is my new acting hero.

Tonight i get to see and POSSIBLY meet Chita Rivera. If the show is good i would like to meet her. If not, i really dont like her work, after hearing her Nine she ANNOYS ME!

Closing weekeng of ZP>>>>>PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME!!!! I would LOVE TO SEE U GUYS> Also if you come saturday can someone maybe give me a ride to the concert at the Bean Bar???

My aud for Holes is this weekend. My monologue isnt memorized....i will do it! Also my monologue for the variety show is REALLY DISTURBING>>>>> Its about Nazi germany . It makes you think about our government.

I <3 u all....only if you have or will come to see ZP

Halloween was a BLAST! I think this was the best halloween EVER. First i went over to Bina's with Hilary and Bina (of Course). We went to Rite-aid (they bought bad fake eyelash glue)to buy stuff. Then we WALKED SO FAR to Hilary's house (my fingers started to swell)and hung out till hil's dad drove us back. Alex was there(by her lonesome for sometime). Eventually Collin, Nicole, Zack(my new Best Friend), Taylor and Desiree showed up. Then we met up with Briana, Laura, Jana, Imp, Brent, and other people. It was INSANE!!!!!! We went to Meryn's and got THE BEST HALLOWEEN COOKIES EVER, water. Then we went to Charles' house to watch the Exorcist

I also got the Light in the Piazza sheet music. My life IS SWEET. All i need is the boy

PEOPLE WHO MUST COME TO SEE ZOMBIE PROM AND THE HAUNTED HOUSE SO ERIN AND I CAN SCARE THE CRAP OUT OF U!
Alex
Collin
John
Imp
Brent
Bina
Nicole
Hilary
Charles(SEE IT AGAIN)

If i didnt say ur name it just means i hate you and u must come. maybe ill forgive you for whatever you did!


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Zombie Dust and now you think you've died and
been resurrected. You must do the bidding of
your evil master as long as he holds your soul
imprisoned. Since you're not really dead, you
can be killed with a well-placed toothpick!


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